When there's nothing I can do...

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

What do you do when your best friend just wants to disappear?
And when you have absolutely no idea, and no way of knowing how she's doing, where she is, or what is happening with her?

Nothing...you can't do anything.

Just pray...and pray again...and then pray some more. 
I know that, and I've been doing a lot of that...even though it seems to be completely fruitless sometimes...praying for my sweet best friend, constantly!

It's been very hard not seeing her, or even hearing from her, for MONTHS!
Lisa and I were connected by an invisible thread, always meant to be together. Once we became friends, we were REALLY friends. We always took ballet class together and either went to iHop to eat breakfast for dinner, or to a local pub get drinks after class. We spent Saturday nights watching ghost investigator shows, if only to make fun of the goof-ball guys who made total fools of themselves during their investigations. We talked about everything...no, I mean LITERALLY, EVERYTHING! We have a million inside jokes, and we laugh together like it's a Olympic sport!

We are the very definition of "soul sisters".

Of course, I have been fine because I have a life to live...and I love to enjoy life...
But there are some moments when I miss her so much, and my heart breaks so hard for her suffering {and the fact that I can only watch it all helplessly}, that I just completely lose it!
Obviously, I am so so thankful for the other people in my life...for my extremely supportive guy, and all of my other friends. But there are some days when I just desperately want to talk to HER. That's it. But I can't. And that's hard.

More than anything in the whole entire world, I wish I could speed as fast as humanly possible over to her house, give her the world's biggest hug, and take all of her pain away.
But meanwhile, I just have to wait until she comes back to me. And back to the land of the living.

I've been in the dark pit of mood disorder, and I know how ugly and scary it can be.
I get very angry that it exists sometimes.
Right now...I'm completely FURIOUS that it exists. Because it's slowly been taking one of my favorite people in the world away from me.

Say lots of prayers for her...join in with me.


  1. This must be so difficult for you. But I agree, sometimes we must allow God work and just pray. I would love for you to share this post on my link up this week over at belovedgems.org

    Be Blessed!

    1. Thanks, Gema! I did link up, and I'm now following your blog too! I love the content you post, and that you write about mental health! That is my passion! I definitely plan to link up again! :))

  2. This must be so difficult for you. But I agree, sometimes we must allow God work and just pray. I would love for you to share this post on my link up this week over at belovedgems.org

    Be Blessed!

  3. I believe in the power of prayer. Our God is faithful and hears us when we cry out to Him. I come in agreement with you in prayer for the Lord to comfort her and remove whatever is tormenting her. Lord take it away right now in name of Jesus. Lord You said there is power in the name of Jesus and nothing is to hard for you. May she reach out to her friends and others who love her. May she know that she is loved. Lord don't let her isolate herself; for You know that is what the god of this world wants. Jesus I know You are able to do far more than we can ever ask for. In Your name we pray and wait patiently. Thank You Jesus for the hug her friend desires will come to past.

    As a quick testimony I used to cut myself and be in such torments. I would isolate myself from family and friends. The Lord brought to the scriptures of Luke 8:27-39. I cried and I pleaded for God to help me with it all. He heard my prayers and although at times I get down. I fight back with praise, because greater is He who is in me; than he who is in the world.

    Leave her messages, emails, or scriptures. She will read them. Friends would text me and even though I wouldn't respond. I still read them and it helped. God bless You and you are very much loved by God. I will keep her and you in my prayers.